Random

You know I'm actually sick of the word 'random', but it is the only thing that describes this post, and looking up synonyms for random is useless. No other word works quite like it.

Anyway--here you go:

First, I had an epiphany. Why in the world am I going to school, working to pay for school, and staying up all night doing homework if sometimes I'm afraid that I'll never get to use my degree?! I have no time, no money, no sleep, and plenty of stress, and for what? So I can get married and have children (which I do want, don't worry) and then never actually teach history someday? I was lamenting this with my BFF Jill--yes I have an "idk my bff Jill"--when we realized that moms have no time, no money, no sleep, and for what, or who? Well the answer is obvious, and I gained a little perspective. It's still a little frustrating, but such is life, and I've never heard of anybody regretting education.

Second, check out this awesome portrayal of early September of 1776 for the Continental Army. The design, coloring, and half of the drawing was by yours truly, but I had to have Rebecca draw some of the faces.

Third, I have been thinking about something terribly sad. A guy from back in junior high, 8th grade English to be exact, committed suicide last weekend. He jumped out the window of his apartment in Los Angeles. I feel that with crime shows on TV and the news and intense movies, we talk about and view death and suicide quite a lot, but hearing about this has put a gray cloud over my week. It made me think about what I remember about Michael, sitting next to me in Ms. Aland's class. It made me think about later in high school when Mr. Tanner drilled into us that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It made me think about Ms. Kelley telling about students that she was able to help before they made that mistake and those who she wasn't able help. I thought about how many times me and my friends joke about "throwing ourselves off the top of the swkt" (Kimball Tower). I feel bad about that because life is precious and I forget that too easily. When Jeff passed away Teresa was motivated to start living some of her dreams, so she made arrangements to take care of a horse like she has always wanted. Hearing about Michael makes me want to fight the urge to get overwhelmed and down on myself. It makes me want to appreciate every single day, whether it's gray or sunny.

Fourth and last, on a lighter note, I thoroughly enjoyed going to the BYU Creamery and Bean Museum with Grandma, Aunt Debbie, Tristan, Teresa, Andrea, Elizabeth, Nathaniel, and Marinda. I love spending time with my awesome cousins!

So those are my random thoughts. What are your random thoughts?